Why I am not afraid

At 23 I was pregnant with my eldest daughter. The father, a narcissist, became very aggressive and it was no longer safe to stay in that home. I packed some things and went back to my parental home, but it was not safe there in the dysfunctional family either. The universe ensured that I ended up safe in the hospital in the ward for pregnant women. The diagnosis was pre-eclampsia because that's what they tell you if they don't know the cause. The medical term for pre-eclampsia is also called HELLP syndrome, which is ambiguous.

I was surrounded by narcissists who tried to scare me by telling me all kinds of things about what could go wrong, such as what percentage chance there was that I or the baby would not survive and more of that nonsense. But the universe made sure I was in the love- frequency and I trusted God completely. I knew nothing about the universe, but I felt that there was a higher power that I called God. All I thought every time they were talking to me was God gave me this baby and no matter what you say it is God who decides life and death and not you. She was born prematurely with an emergency caesarean section, but everything went well after that, she was super strong and I even got a rental house for me and my daughter. I learned a lot from it and during my second pregnancy I was better prepared and this one went a lot easier.

There have been several events in which protection was put on high alert. God brings it back to my memories and has allowed me to experience it all so that I can understand how the enemy works.

In this video Denzo Mos talks about how chosen ones are protected:

In the first weeks after waking up I was still a bit cramped, especially when I was outside on the street. I had agreed with my daughters to go to the foot salon downtown for a pedicure and to go shopping. The hustle and bustle in the center made me nervous because I had just learned that a foot salon is not a good idea because people can throw negative energy at you. But it went pretty well. While my daughters tried on shoes and clothes in the shops, I kept looking for a seat because I was quite exhausted in those first weeks. I tried to avoid eye contact with the people as much as possible and was prepared for a possible attack from the enemy. In my mind I was asking for help and protection from the universe all the time. And then there was a young woman with a particularly positive appearance in the store, it caught my attention. In the next store she was there again and only then did I look at her clothes. The number 222 was printed very large on the front of her sweatpants and when she turned around I saw the word angel on the back. I had recently discovered what angel numbers are and this was so comforting to me and also amazing that the universe can do this. I felt happy and safe for the rest of the afternoon.

Because I was so tired in those first weeks from processing all the information, I decided not to cook and buy a ready-made meal. It didn't feel good because I knew it was safest to prepare your own meal but I was hungry. The wrapper of the container said "bennie bang" and that is dutch dialect for  "ben niet bang" translated it is "don't be afraid". It was so funny that I took a picture of it.